I really haven't been posing here at all lately. I guess most of that is because nothing at the ordinary has really been happening. I didn't get to do much for Halloween this year, which was a real bummer. So nothing to report there.

The weather has been getting better here. It rained a lot during October. It seemed to rain almost every day, and I love the rain! It also cooled the temperature off considerably and lessened the humidity. It actually feel quite nice outside. During my bike ride on Friday, all the paths had water on them at some point. I got soaked riding through some of the puddles, but that doesn't bothr me at all. In fact, I enjoy getting wet. Wierd, a swimmer that likes to get wet.

Anyway, I have also had a ridiculous number of dreams this psat month, even for me (which is saying something). My friends always want to keep a dream diary on me. It would be crazy. I feel like I could write stories out of several of them; that's how vivid and detailed some of them are. Unfortunately, some of them are nightmares. I wake up sweating, and have even fallen off my bed once or twice, and I think thank God that was a dream. Others are so wierd and fantastical, I can barely describe them. It would seem my imagination is crazy. However, most of the dreams are wonderful, and I think I wish that would happen at some time.

Well, that was me rambling about nothing. Off to do something...

Wow...I think this may be the longest time I have gone without posting something here. Nothing really exciting was going on.

I've been quite lazy too. I've been trying to go for longer bike rides, but I haven't been able to go for about a week now, which frustrates me. It has been very rainy. Don't get me wrong I love rain and enjoy watching it. I don't mind getting soaking wet either. However, I just don't want to ride outside while there is a lot of lightning.

Yesterday, I had to take a standardized test. It went ok. One section was kind of a nightmare. I might as well have not studied at all for it. My luck with such things is quite terrible.

My MSN has also been annoying. Even if I do sign on (which seems to be a matter of luck), it will not let me IM people.

I was glad to hear that the olympics were chosen to be in Rio. It was clearly the best choice in my opinion. It's about time they let the olpympics be in South America. I definitely did not want them to be held in Chicago.

Well, a storm has started again, and my dog is freaking out (she is so scared of storms). She shakes uncontrollably, drools everyhere, and likes to jump on and off me over and over. I need to try and calm her down. I have never succeeded in this task.

Well, not much has been going on lately. I've been pretty lazy. I go to the doctor's office a couple times a week to shadow her. It's a lot of fun! I have seen and learned so much already! The drive down there takes 50 minutes to an hour (with no traffic, and there seems to always be traffic), but it's ok because I plug in my ipod and sing songs. That makes the ride pass pretty quickly.

Today, or I guess rather tonight, I decided to go for a run. It went really badly. The first half was alright, then it went south very quickly. The last quarter of my run, I had to alternate between running and walking because my body just gave out. I usually enjoy the pain (I know that sounds wierd), but this time my body just died. I was both mad and embarrassed at myself. I still feel horribly nauseous several hours after the run. I guess I need to start running more again.

I've also been having similar dreams for almost a week now. All of them are so vivid. However, something bad always happens to me, usually while elping someone else. There are plenty of other details (but I don't want to write them). I always wake up depressed. I even woke up crying one morning. What is with that?! I don't know what to make of it! I don't want these dreams to keep up, but there is nothing I can do.

Off to sleep!

Well, yesterday I officially started shadowing a doctor. She is a primary care physician. So she deals with all sorts of things. She is really nice. It's a lot of fun! I kind of feel dumb that I don't what all the drugs do, but she told me that was normal. Apparently, I won't learn them until/if I get to medical school. Even then, she said it took years of practice to learn most of them. Either way, I feel like I am learning a lot. I want to be able to wear the scrubs I have, but for now I just have to wear pants, shirt, and tie. The scrubs are awesome because they are basically glorified pajamas. They are pretty comfortable.

Although I am having fun, I am not sleeping a lot. I still go to bed relatvely late, but now I have to wake up much earlier to make it to the doctor's office, which about an hour away on the other side of the city. I feel like it's definitely worth it. At least tomorrow I get to sleep in...sort of. I have to get up at 4 because my dad is going out of town, but then I can go back to sleep.

Not much else is going. I am just relaxing in my bed until sleep overtakes me.

This will be short. Well, today started off okay. I then realized I should check my score from the MCAT I took back in July. I was hoping to do decent on it, and I honestly felt like I did ok. However, it turns out I did poorly, very poorly. Plus, I really needed to do well. It is so terribly frustrating and disheartening. I do not even know what to do. I know the information, but I am sooooo bad at taking standardized tests. So people who don't know me assume I am an idiot, when I really am not. I feel like crying; I can not do anything right it seems!

Not too much has been happening recently. I've been pretty lazy as of late. This morning I woke up and met up with a friend. I decided to run on the treadmill while he did the eliptical machine. I am not very good at running so I decided I would just run for about 20 minutes, but as I started, I decided to go for 30 minutes, which turned into 35 and then 45 minutes. After about 30 minutes, my left hip started to hurt, but I wanted to get to 45, so I kept going. Well, that was a huge mistake. Now, my hip really hurts. I seem to have a bad habit of semi-injuring myself because I do something stupid. This has happened before, and it should be better in a couple of days. Still, I feel pretty dumb.

I was then told I should probably not eat until dinner because I should work up an appetite, which I definitely did. A friend's mom took a couple of friends and I out to Fogo de Chao. So, it was a good idea that I was really hungry. I love the all the different kinds of meat there. It was delicious and a lot of fun. Of course, we all ate too much. The car ride home was not so fun. We then played the Wii for a little while. I feel like I should just go to bed, but it is far too early to do so (sort of).

This weekend, I am apparently going to go the National Zoo in Washington, DC. I love all kinds of animals, so I naturally can not pass up the offer. Maybe I can take some pictures while I am there, that is if I can remember to bring my camera.

I feel so wierd now though. I have been doing some fun things lately, but I feel so sad and empty inside, and I am not too sure why. I kind of feel like my best is just not good enough. The few close friends I have all seem to have more confidence in me than I do, so I am afraid of not just letting myself down, but them as well. I am just writing now to try and figure out what is wrong, but I can not figure it out. I now feel like I am alone, even with when I am interacting with others. Ugh! This is hurting my head. Life will go on, right? Maybe I will be able to figure things out, maybe not. *Sigh*

Today was a very interesting day. I got to sleep in today, which is always a good way to start the day. I didn't have anything planned, so I thought I was going to be lazy. However, a couple of friends wanted to go to the gym, and I decided to go as well. I spent most of my time helping one of them to improve their swimming. I always enjoy helping other people in any way I can!

Afterwards, I played a game of frisbee. It was a lot of fun! However, we really need to try and play earlier in the day instead of during the hottest part of the day! I could barely walk after all that. I just got back to my room and and basically collapsed in a chair. We were going to see a movie after that, but seeing as how had not eaten all day, we decided to postpone seeing the movie until tomorrow. I think we will see it tomorrow night.

After I ate, I went back to where I played frisbee earlier in the day and played a game called Kubb. I am told it is a Swedish game. It's a little complicated to explain, but it involves throwing wood pins at small wooden cylinders to knock them over. We played a couple of games, and it was exciting. Now, I am watching an older movie called Flubber. I've seen it before, but it's funny, so I am watching it again. Hopefully, I can finish watching it before I fall asleep!

Today, I woke up really early again, and I went with some a couple of friends to a golf tournament (the AT&T National). As I've said before, I am not a huge golf fan, but it was fun and relaxing to get outside for a change. The weather was really nice today! We got to watch Tiger Woods play at several holes. It was so hard to watch him though because the crowds following him her were so enormous. At one time, I had a really good, close view of the green (we got there a couple of holes before Tiger got there). I watched a couple of groups of golfers before him (I was kneeling on the ground). However, when Tiger and his group got to the green, some lady pushed her way through knocked me over and decided to kneel directly in front of me! I had to look through gaps in people to see after that. It was so annoying! Other than that, it was fun just to walk around and enjoy life.

I really need to get more sleep! I've had only a couple of hours of sleep each night. Today, when we got the tournament, we had to take a 20 minute bus ride to the actual golf course. I fell asleep on that bus going to the course and on the way back. Apparently, my friend sitting behind decided to annoy me and wake me up by moving my head around, but I never woke up. On the car ride home, I fell asleep again and woke up with a headache. My friend told me it was probably because every time the car turned, I would smack my head hard against the window, and I somehow slept through that. I don't think my brain has recovered yet from my MCAT on Thursday. The exhausting test plus a lack of sleep is killing me. I feel like I need Stein's screw from Soul Eater to fix my head.

Speaking of Soul Eater, I have been reading the manga in my spare time, and I must admit I enjoy it more than the anime. It's really good! I am just too tired now to keep reading.

I also received exciting news for the first time in awhile. I get to start shadowing a doctor this month, and I can do it for as long as I want to. I am so excited. I think it is going to be a lot of fun!

Finally, tomorrow is July 4th (of course). I am going to be going to kind of a party and celebrate. It should be fun as well! Hopefully, we will get to the fireworks show at night too.

Well, it's time for to sleep for a long time! I am out!!!

My infamous date with the MCAT examination is almost at hand. I really, really do not want to take it! I'll probably get up at 5 am on Thursday morning. I am kind of scared about waking up on time because I have been sleeping really late this past week (I have been unusually tired). My test begins at 8 am, and it will take at least 5 hours to complete. The worst part is that I am not a good standardized test taker. I over think questions and freak myself out no matter what I do. All I can hope for is to do my best and get through Thursday.

On Friday, I am going with a few friends to watch Tiger Woods and a golf tour. I am not a big golf fan, but it will be fun to relax after my test and get out of my room. Then, I'll robably have more work to do starting on Saturday.

There is not too much more happening here. So, I am off to bed. Hopefully, I can sleep well so I will be ready for Thursday!

Wow, I have not written here in quite some time. A few things have happened in the past month or so. I was helping out at the Naval Academy Swim Camp for about 2 weeks. That was exhausting, but it was still a lot of fun. I had to be up at 6 every morning and I usually did not get to sleep until around two or so. On the last day, I completely lost my voice. It was actually kind of funny.

I have an MCAT test on July 2nd. I took one last summer, and I did not do very well. I feel like I was more prepared for the one I did poorly on, so I am quite worried. Tomorrow morning, I have a meeting with a faculty member at school. She is going to ask me a bunch of questions to get to know me better. I am really afraid she will think I am an idiot because I won't be able to answer her questions to her satisfaction. The meeting is only 30 minutes long, but I am nervous.

Tomorrow, after my meeting, I guess I will have to study all day. How very exiting (*blah*).

Today was ok. I did push-ups and sit-ups with a friend because I have been soooooo lazy lately. Then, he turned on a Wii game called My Fitness Coach. He had me make a profile, which made me do more push-ups, sit-ups, jumping jacks, and squats. We then did four 15 minute "workouts". It was actually really funny, but strangely enough I am kind of sore now. My groins really hurt because I didn't stretch at all (I am an idiot). I then went with that friend to see Transformers at the movie theater. We then got food. My internet has not allowed me to stay on for more than 10 minutes at a time (until now). So, a couple of friends are watching a movie as I type this. All in all, today was pretty exciting!

I am not looking forward to tomorrow!!!

The school year is over, but I have been really busy. I am actually exhausted right now. I am going to hellp out at a swim camp starting on the 10th for 11 days. I did it last year as well. It's a lot of fun, but very tiring. My mom and I drove 1100 miles today driving to the swim camp. Unfortunately, we have another 400 miles to drive tomorrow. I was so cramped up and my butt hurt after the long drive. We left at 2:30 in the morning (believe it or not, we left later than we wanted to) and we drove until 7 pm.

Last night, I slept for about 1.5 hours. I fell down on my couch and just passed out in a really awkward position. When I woke up, I was more tired than when I went to sleep. I could barely walk straight. I also had a very strange dream last night that involved a game a couple of my friends downloaded for the Wii, Endless Ocean.

I keep having trouble with my internet. Hopefully, it will work more consistently tomorrow afternoon before I leave for the swim camp.

It has been quite awhile since I posted here last. I have been really busy, and yet I feel like I have accomplished nothing. I have to be doing applications for school (for next year). I keep procrastinating because I have a hard time answering all the questions. I just feel like I'll get rejected because I am not the smartest person at my school and other people are just so much better than me at so many things. I don't want to sound sorry for myself, but I feel kind of hopeless. One of my friends said he would help me out tomorrow. I really appreciate it!

A couple of days ago, my parents took me to Fogo de Chao (a Brazilian churrascaria). I really enjoyed it! My dad knows some Portuguese from his business trips, and taught me some, and I taught him some that I have learned on my own. He asked me how to say red because he likes his steak really red (in my opinion he gets his steaks too rare, gross to me). However, he kept telling our waiter that he wanted yellow meat. The waiter just looked really confused, and I thought it was pretty funny.

I also got a new pair of sandals because my last pair broke. I got a pair of green ones that I like a lot! Also, since my computer is basically dead, my parents surpsised me and said that they are going to get me a new one soon. I can't wait!!!

Not much to say today. I spent basically the entire day studying. I have a ridiculous stack of notes for my Animal Behavior class. It looks like I killed a few baby trees. Tomorrow is going to be just like today was.

I did manage to finish my piture I was working on. It was driving me crazy, but it is now done and scanned on to my computer.

Like I said, nothing much.

Well, I had my first final exam for the semester yesterday. It was in developmental biology. I actually have no idea how I did because it was really hard (which was expected). I still felt like I knew a lot of it, but since every course is curved, my grade is going to be based on how everyone else does.

My next exam is Tuesday from 2-5, and then my last one is on Tuesday from 6-9. So, I am not going to enjoy Tuesday. Last night, I decided to draw a picture, but I couldn't draw for the life of me. I was getting really frustrated, and that was supposed to relax me from studying. I got up early and continued studying (and working on the drawing). I managed to finish (sort of). I still need to color it. Of course, I don't think it came out very well, but I did my best. Hopefully, I can post it tomorrow (or maybe I'll have to wait until exams are finished). We shall see.

Anyway, bak to studying, and then I am going to see a movie with some friends. Apparently, I have been spending to much time looking at textbooks and notes.

This weekend was a lot of fun! I just hung out with my friends on Saturday and played a lot of basketball. Unfortunately, by playing so much basketball I cut up my feet really badly. It was still fun playing. On Sunday, I went with my friends to play lazer tag. It was surprisingly exhausting. There were two levels, and I always ran up to the second one, and since the games were so long, I got really tired.

Today and yesterday were not nearly as fun. Yesterday, I spent the day studying, except for when I got tired of it, and I decided to keep learning basic Portuguese. It's so much fun. I can only say extremely basic things (like the boy was running), but it's so exciting. I just want to do that all day.

Today, I was going to spend the whole day studying until 2 of my friends convinced me to play basetball again. It was better than studying all day; I can say that much. I still run around, basically in circles, for a couple of hours. I don't shoot the ball because I am terrible at it. Currently, I am doing a mixture of studying and learning more Portuguese. Guess which one I want to do more.

Time to work.

This is my last week of classes. Then next week is reading period, and then, there are the dreaded finals. I have a lot of finals this semester (bummer). This weekend is my MCAT, but I am getting less nervous beause unless a miracle happens during it, I am going to cancel my scores. I just haven't had the proper time to prepare for it. I know it's partially my fault, but school has kept me sooooo busy. I am really tired because I have not been sleeping much the last week.

Last night, my fried gave me a copy of the Portuguese Rosetta Stone. I really want to use it so I can at least learn some very basic Portuguese. I did the first lesson after it finished downloading. I am so excited to learn it!!!!!!!!!

I took a break from studying this afternoon and finished watching Soul Eater. I really loved the series!! I hope they make a second season!!! I want MORE!!

Well, my head is spinning. I have so much going on. I don't really know where to begin. So, Spring Fair is this weekend at school!!! It's really exciting!!! It is, unfortunately, smaller than last year. This probably due to the fact that the economy is still really bad here. However, there are still a lot of great places to eat and little shope with random stuff for sale. I tried a lot of different things to eat! I guess I'll be going to the fair tomorrow and Sunday as well!

School wise, I have to read a book for my Personal Finance class and do a book report on it by Tuesday. Then, I have my MCAT a week from tomorrow. I am not going to kid myself on this one. It sucks! I'll probably have to cancel my scores because of the fear of doing horribly rotten on it. I just haven't had much time to prepare for it. I know that's my fault, at least partially, but school has been so hectic. I am freaking out about it. My parents give me a really hard time about doing poorly on these kinds of tests. It's so frustrating!

On a lighter note, I have been able to watch Soul Eater at night before I go to sleep. I only have like 10 more episodes!! It's really great!!! One of my favorite characters is not doing so well. I hope everything works out!

This weekend was a lot of fun! I got next to zero work done, which is kind of worrisome because I have a long paper due on Thursday, and I haven't really started it (I've got some of the research done, but that's about it).

Anyways, on Saturday morning, I woke up and went to a friend's house. We had pizza for lunch. A couple of people wanted to play a drinking game. I really don't understand why people like to drink so much. I just had coke instead. We then went to a lacrosse game (it was our team's homecoming game). Our team won by a lot! However, in the third quarter, one of my friend's got pretty sick (he drank too much), and he threw up at the top of the stadium. Another friend and I took him to a bathroom, and then him took him to friend's place to sleep and rest.

We pllayed Wii games later in the afternoon. That was a lot of fun! At night, we went to a building on campus (one floor) and played sardines. All the lights are turned off and one person hides. Then everyone tries to find them. Once you find the person, you sit/lay next to the hidden person. The last person to find them has to hind the next round. I hid in a very hot area, and it took everyone forever to find me. It was very uncomfortable, but the game was a lot of fun!

Today, my friends and I went to a school dinner, which was a lot better than I thought it would be. Then, I came back and my friend challenged me to a game of Wii golf and bowling (we seem to enjoy that game right now). I had 10 strikes in a row in bowling (then I got a spare). It was really funny!

Earlier this morning, I watched the two episodes of the new FMA. The plot is moving pretty quick, but it's still really good!

Well, I should probably try to get some work done.

I am soooo glad Monday and Tuesday are over. I don't have any major test until May now. Monday was kind of bad because I thougt I did awesome on a test, and, apparently, I did not. However, after I finished my long day yesterday, I played a lot of Wii sports with my friends. It was a lot of fun!! I manged to get pro in golf, bowling, and baseball. I am not good at the boxing, but it was hilarious to watch us play. We were just flailing our arms wildly.

It's been raining (not too hard) for almost a week it seems. I seem to not believe in bringing an umbrella anywhere. My clothes are all hanging up in my room now. I walked across a grass field, but it was more of swamp at this point. I think my shoes spent most of the time submerged underwater. I like getting soaked for some reason!

This afternoon, I am going to go play basketball when one of my friend's gets back. I am going to have to wear two pairs of socks because my feet are still kind of beat up.

I also watched a lot of Soul Eater today and last night. I always can't wait to see the next one. So, I usually just watch it! Haha!

That's it for now!

Whooo...I am quite tired right now. This weekend was basically all studying for my insane test tomorrow. I hope everything works out. But after the test tomorro, there will be no rest. I have lot of studying and work to do for Tuesday. I have a group project due Tuesday. One of my friends is in my group which is nice, but our group split the project amongst everyone. However, the person in charge of part 3 has not done her part, so my friend and I can't do our parts yet. I feel bad because there is a one other person's part depends on my friend and I. The whole assignment seems to be a mess.

Well, the one different thing I did this weekend was that some of the other people on the swim team and I volunteered at something where we taught little kids about water safety. I was silly for us, but the little kids seemed to have a really fun time. So, that was exciting.

I need to get some sleep now. I can barely keep my eyes open!